Nicole, , Nikki, Nickie. 19 yrs young. NYC. Photographer. Music Lover. School of Visual Arts Photography Major; Freshman.
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Sometimes you pop in my head and I don’t know why you have this hold on me. We weren’t even anything serious. But I guess I let you have this hold on me when we were seeing each other. And you’re with a girl now who’s awful and forces you to stop talking to your girl friends and stopped you from doing what you love.
But I guess what happens, happens. So fuck it now.
No, okay. Just no.
This kid says he wants to chill - YET I always tell him to tell me when he’s free cause his work sched is crazy. But he doesn’t! So he says some stupid comment cause I told him my ex and I were cool and we chill now. And to be honest it really fucking pissed me off. This is why I stay away from some guys. This stupid shit. I don’t fucking need it.
WORKING,WORKING. GETTING SHIT DONE.
l LOVE THIS FEELING!
Yup. This would happen to me of course. >.> then he tells me that she wants to see him outside of work to see if it’s something. Yeah, totally wanna hear that.
So…
two of my teachers say i can’t develop my concept.
cool.
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I just cried about how my body looked just like 5 mins ago. Time to really stop talking about how I want to loose weight and be happy with my weight and health by doing something about it.
Time to be happy about how I look again.
I see all these gorgeous thinner than myself girls at raves and it gets me sad. I think of how the guys go up to them and say ‘hey you have a gorgeous body!’ or ‘your body is amazing.’ Don’t get me wrong, I sorta love my thunder thighs, hips and my big ass but thats all I am really content with on my body. My stomach is too expanded, I have too many stretch marks, my calfs are HUGE and my arms are wiggly and fat. Also I have so much extra flab underneath my chin… ugh. The flaws are limitless.
Helping my sister clean out all her stuff from her old apartment today really hit me! Her and Noel aren’t together anymore. No more hype over wedding shit, dress shopping, seeing her happy in a dress that she feels can be the one… I can’t see that happiness on my sisters face anymore. It gets me angry. What gets me angry is all the trust and secrets I told and gave him - he was someone I could confide in that helped me through so much and he changed as they always do. He’s not the genuine, sweet I’m here for you guy anymore. And he’s completely tarnished the way I see him. I forgave him all those other times and never again. fuck him! i just have so much anger towards him. He was the big brother I never got to have… TRUST NO ONE.
SO BORED!
Followers, anon’s! Go ask me questions please?! I am so bored!
It finally all came out of me… *le sigh*
THAT AWKWARD MOMENT
when you wanna watch porn but too scared that your mom is gonna walk in on it. :3
Yup.
I shot a couple night portraits of my family.
It just reminded me of why they’re like no other and why I love them so much. I love my family.
TMI TUESDAY.
Fill up mah ask box with questions anon or not.
I need a distraction from hw and “drawing”.
Shit.
The tumblr entry I made this morning just scared the living shit out of myself.
Fuck.
I’m okay people — just was having a bad morning.
I just want to stop feeling useless.
I want to have that feeling of being normal, happy and just useful. I hate that I’ve stooped down to the level I have.
